Tuesday, August 19, 2008

The Last Moment

Wow, what an experience…

Have you ever realized/dreamt/thought what would be our last moment like. The more I am experiencing the unknown, the more awestruck I am becoming…

There is one moment in everybody’s life when one becomes realized, at least for that very moment. But unfortunately for most of us, that’s our very last moment on this earth, its smaller then even smallest fraction of a second. Yet in that fractional moment, we see our entire life flashing through our eyes. The phenomenon of time doesn’t apply there.

I used to often question, why death is so painful for the majority of humans, I found all kinds of reasons this pain like the fear of unknown, attachment with this body, pain of leaving the loved ones behind, unfulfilled tasks etc. but the one most powerful reason, I realized just recently.

In that fractional moment, our consciousness is automatically raised to such an extent that we go beyond the boundaries of time. In that last moment, each one of us realize the true purpose of our life, the reason for which we were born, and in that last moment, we also see our entire life flashed through our vision. In that last moment, we realize that we lost it; we realize that we wasted this golden opportunity of merging with the divine. It feels as you wake up from the dream of life and realize that you just forgot the purpose, for which you came. The loss is really intense, and that is why such an enormous pain. The pain is not so much of the unknown, but the pain is so much of the known, of the known fact, the known realization that you lost it, you were just sleeping, all the time engaged in the mundane activities of the dream.

Unfortunately, you wake up from the dream at the last moment and then you are entering into the state of death. At that last moment you realize that you didn’t live, the moment you get up from the dream, you straightaway enter into death. You didn’t live, not even for a single day. And now there is no time to live, the game is over. No pain can be greater then the pain of this realization, no loss can be bigger then this loss of unlived life.

That is why, all dharma’s keep on telling us to wake up, wake up from this dream, this illusion of Maya, live aware fully and prepare for an awakened death. A death which then no longer be the last moment, it will become an eternal moment, by then the drop would have become the ocean and the seed would have become the tree…

Wake up, O my beloved travellers, wake up, you can save yourself from that enormous pain of “The Last Moment”… wake up and convert that “Last moment into an eternal moment”… You don’t have to wait till the last moment, its right here, waiting for you.

Bless this existence by your awakening…

(love to the god sitting inside you)

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Inner source of energy

This world is really an illusion, the more I see it outside the more I witness this illusion. We often think that everybody carries a certain energy and it also gets transferred… so, lets say if you are with a positive guy, a part of his positive flow of energy does gets transferred into you and hence you feel positive, or if you are with a negative person, a part of his negative energy gets transferred into you and hence you start feeling negative. However, this whole phenomenon of energy transfer also appears to be another illusion, because in reality, nothing happens outside, everything is inside you only… the whole brahmand is inside every being.

So what happens in reality? Does the energy transfer from one to another happens? Why do we feel influenced in a certain way (positive or negative) with some people? The truth is, the entire store of energy is inside you, you are carrying this endless source of energy (positive, negative, neutral) in you all the time. When you meet a person with positive flow of energy, for that particular moment, he/she creates a context, a space around you which helps you to tap into your own source of energy with positive flow, he didn’t transfer any of his energy in you, but he just created a space, a context. The same happens when you are in the company of a negative person, he creates a context, a space which forces you to open your own source of negative energy.

So, when Buddha said, “sangham sharanam gacchami”, he wants you to be with people, who can create a meditative space, meditative context around you, so that you can go to your own inner source of energy and transform it into a divine meditative energy. But remember, end of the day, the vast source of energy is hidden inside you only… stop seeking it in the outside world, that’s an illusion. Go within you and there you will find this hidden jewel. Once you find it, you can just open the flood gates and let it flow towards the divine, soon the connection will be created and the transformation will happen… from human to divine. Living in the same body the human being will transcend into the endless divine…

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

The Traffic of your Thoughts

One of the greatest distractions on path of inner journey is “the traffic of your thoughts in the mind”. Imagine, if there is lot of traffic on the road, all kinds of vehicles moving here and there, some slow, some fast, and all that honking, it makes your journey such a horrible experience, you are all the time frustrated, you don’t even look around to appreciate the beauty of the rising sun, you can’t even feel the wind coz its so polluted outside, you are forced to roll your windows up, the whole experience becomes a nightmare. Similarly, in your inner journey the traffic of your thoughts make it almost impossible to venture in. You try to close your eyes and do meditation and immediately you start encountering all kind of rubbish thoughts. And the traffic of thoughts becomes so heavy that in frustration you just open your eyes and give up the whole idea of inner journey. This traffic of your thoughts makes your inner journey almost impossible, even walking few steps becomes a very uphill task, an overall demotivating, dejecting experience, so you just drop this whole effort. This thought traffic just sucks all your energy.

If you have a real urge to tread the path of inner journey, you must see the origin of your thoughts and you must learn how to really maneuver through them. Have you ever observed that your thought traffic is directly related and proportional to the quantum of your EGO (the non-existent illusionary self). Just observe, if somebody argues with you and insults you real badly, it really hurts your EGO. Basically it’s your illusionary, non existent self which is feeling the hurt and pain. Your whole attention and focus goes in the hurt. And as a law of nature, wherever you put your attention/focus, your energy will start flowing towards that and the object of your focus will grow bigger and bigger. Since, now your focus becomes on hurt and on those insulting words, your ego starts expanding. As your ego starts expanding, parallely the traffic of your thoughts starts growing. You start thinking how to teach the rival a lesson and so on. The same happens if somebody praises you, again it bloats your EGO and in the same proportion your thought traffic starts expanding, you start getting the thoughts like how good you are, how the whole world is praising about you, what a great thing you did and so on.

Now if you look from the other side, let’s say you love dancing or swimming or any such activity. As you start dancing, slowly you will come in your flow and in few moments you will just be dancing without even being aware of who is noticing, how are your steps working, are you doing it right or no… you will just become the dance. And at that moment if you notice, your thought traffic is completely gone. You are just dancing. You are not even aware of your surrounding and their various reactions, coz now you are in your real self. Your EGO has ceased to exist for those few moments and hence no thoughts at all.

In both the above situations you will notice that size of your EGO (the non-existent illusionary self) and quantum of your thoughts are absolutely proportional.

There are many techniques to control your thought traffic and manage your EGO, I’m going to discuss just one of them. Most of the eastern religion and sages believe in the concept of non-duality, that everything is one, that it is our false EGO which creates individuality, which divides I from you and which creates all the phenomenon of duality. So, basically speaking, duality is false, it creates the big illusion. In this world every negative thing can be used positively, like the nuclear energy can be used for generating electricity rather then killing people, similarly the notion of duality can be positively used to control your thoughts and manager your Ego.

And you can approach this practice from two sides. From one side you work on your thoughts and from other side you work on your EGO using the concept of duality in a positive way.

So, if you are working from the side of your thoughts, whenever overpowering thoughts arises due to any external situation, you just try to create a duality with the thoughts. Just witness your thoughts and feel that you are completely separate from them. Don’t give them any energy. Normally what happens, if a thought comes we acknowledge it and make a reaction, the moment we make a reaction the chain starts. And we make the reaction because we get identified with the thought, we get involved with it. For example, you get a thought that your colleague in office is spreading bad rumors about you, immediately you become identified with this thought and you respond. The moment you respond to your thoughts, you are basically fuelling them, giving them more energy and as you fuel them they start growing. You immediately start thinking how to avoid your colleague’s rumor, or how to teach him a lesson or how to create your clean image etc. By reacting to one thought, you started a chain reaction. So, use the sword of Duality in a positive way. Whenever a thought comes, feel as if you are different from the thought. Just witness the thought as an external phenomenon, don’t get identified with it, don’t react to it, and don’t get engaged with it. Just be aware that you are separate from the thought. This is really using the concept of duality in a positive way for your betterment. This is like using the poison as a medicine.

Now, you can approach it form the false EGO side as well. Whenever any incidence happens (and they keep happening all the time) big or small, like if someone insults you and now your EGO is about to feel the pain, immediately, use the medicine/poison of duality. Feel as if you are different from your false EGO. Your false self will try to react, will try to feel the pain and thereby initiating a chain reaction. But you just cut it at its very root. Tell your false EGO that “you are false, you don’t exist, I’m separate from you, at this moment, I don’t want to feel the hurt, go away”… and slowly you will realize that you have started taking the control of the false EGO, it will start getting smaller and smaller and finally gone. The process here is also the same, you are just not getting identified with you false EGO, you are not giving it any energy, you are not starting any reaction. Rather, you are creating a duality, a BIG duality between your real self and your false illusionary self (EGO).

Using the technique of duality to feel separated from your false EGO and your thoughts is a real meditative practice, it is your moment to moment sadhana. Because to practice this, you have to be awake every moment. Initially you will encounter many problems. Your false EGO and thoughts are very strong right now, coz you have given them a lot of your energy. You have been feeding them, they have grown stronger and bigger, so the process is going to be a tapasya, you have to be very attentive and dedicated. From now on stop giving the food to your false EGO and your thoughts, rather save your energy to discard them, to create a duality with them. Use all your gained energy in the process to fuel your real SELF, to make it much more stronger. End of the day, it’s all about channelizing your energy and practicing awakefullness. If you are watchful, you can channelise your energy as per your choice and wish, and if you are asleep, it will get channelised to some undesired areas. It is the same energy, its quality is to flow all the time and you have the capacity to control and channelise this great flow of energy and ride on it for your inner journey. Have an exciting and pleasurable journey. Remember “The Journey is the Goal”…

Love to the god sitting inside you.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Everything Returns to its source

It is the very nature of existence that everything returns to its source. Till things returns to their very source, they also feel attracted towards the source. The child is always connected, attached and attracted towards his mother, there is always a strong bond between the child and the mother, mother is the source of child’s existence in this life and that’s why he shares a very special bond, a strange connectedness with his mother, throughout his life. You can witness the same phenomenon in the rain drops, after journing thru many miles in rivers it finally merges back in its source which is the ocean, it came from the ocean in the beginning and finally it merges back in the ocean.

Human life is also the same, we are always attracted towards our source, sometimes knowingly but most of the times unknowingly. We are constantly in a strange search of the unknown. our search sometimes takes the form of external travel, sometimes the form of running after name, fame, money, relations, securities and so on and after acquiring all of this, we still feel a strange kind of emptiness with, a strange kind of feeling of going somewhere else or needing something else. All these are small instances of our “real search” our real need to find our source, our real desire to merge back in the source.

In life, our challenges are huge. Most of us spend entire life running after things, which are never able to fill ourselves. So most of us die without even knowing what is our real search, what is it that we really wanted? We just get trapped in the outer world and in the illusion we run after the wrong things, so instead of searching, journing within, we spend our life time searching in the outer world.

Fortunate are the ones, who get the blessing and courage to sit back and start looking within to find, what is the real search, what is the real source, what is the real love and what is the real journey. Once you realize this and start your journey, your search within, you go thru some great experiences and each moment a new awakening happens in your being, and slowly you start moving closer to your center, closer to your source. After a great inner travel, a great inner journey, a point comes when you suddenly realize that “it is in the very nature of everything to move back, to merge in the source”, the process is absolutely natural and mystically automatic, but you still have a BIG role to play and the role is quite simple. You can do this entire travel, which is very natural, which will happen eventually on its own, but your role and your choice is, either you can do this travel in the sleeping mode or in your full awareness, if you see, there is a big difference in both the states.

Think of this, it is your inherent nature to merge back in your source, death will come and you will be merged back into the source, everyone will be merged back sooner or later nobody will escape this merging, but still you have a choice of leading a fulfilled, awakening life, witnessing the divine and be in the divine love each moment of your life OR keep cribbing about things which you did not get, relations which did not materialize, endless desires which never got fulfilled and the false ego which could never be satisfied. These are the only two ways of completing your journey, god has given you complete power to choose either way, and choice is absolutely yours. The sooner you decide the better it is, coz death will come any moment without warning and you will be merged back into your source, your body will be merged into its own five elements, your mind with all your thoughts will be merged in this very existence from where it came, and your pure consciousness will be merged in the collective consciousness of the whole existence. It is time to make your conscious choice and it is also the time to realize that death is no different from life. You came from death, from that unknown divine source and once your journey is over, you will be merged back to the same death, to the same divine source. Death must be the feeling of coming back home. The rain drop merging with the mother ocean finally. Life and Death is beautifully divine if you live and die in divine love and awareness.

Love to all sentient beings...